.perfect.little.dream.

November 2007




			.it.took. .you. .to.make.me. .realize. .stop.

.smashed.up.my.sanity.


User: swantonbomb6 Name: L

.smashed.up.integrity.

.smashed.up.what.i.believed.in.

.my.deviantart.account.

.recover.your.life.

.miniskirt.army.

.nin.

.smashed.up.what.s.left.of.me.

.smashed.up.my.everything.

when I see your smile
tears roll down my face
I can't replace

and now that I'm strong
I have figured out
how this world turns cold
and it breaks through my soul
and I know I'll find
deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven

it's okay.

seasons are changing
and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer
and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven

cause you're my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away
because I am here
for you
please don't walk away
please tell me you'll stay

Stay.

use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know I'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven

.your guardian angel.
.red jumpsuit apparatus.




			.perfect.little.dream. .the.kind.that.hurts.the.most.


	.i.did.not.believe.
	And so this is goodbye, you immature, heartless, spineless, cowardly, disrespectful fucker. One of these days, it's going to set in what you've done. And maybe I'll still be here, but maybe I won't. Either way, you're gonna regret it. I know that much for sure. And I can speak from experience. Regret is one of the worst feelings in the world. So I hope you're happy with the decisions you've made. I can tell you that no one else involved in this is. So good luck with that. And fuck. I'm fine. Always have been. So fuck you. When you grow up, give me a call. .hearing.: "No, You Don't" - Nine Inch Nails


	.this.doesn.t.hurt.
	So everyone's getting engaged. And I'm losing the person that means everything to me. That seems fitting. .hearing.: "Face Down" - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

.2.threw.it.away. -x- .throw.it.away.


	I just wanted you to know I've lied about a lot of things to a lot of people lately. I've done a lot of stupid things. But I haven't lied to you. I just feel like I've lost you already.


	.people.fall.down.
	You know, I remember the day, four years ago. You told me that when I was leaving for the weekend you wanted to stay in bed and sleep until I got home...because then you wouldn't be awake to miss me. I guess this feels something like that. Only I can't sleep. .hearing.: "From A Shell" - Lisa Germano

.throw.it.away.


	They're starting to open up the sky. They're starting to reach down through. And it feels like we're living in that split-second of a car crash. And time is slowing down. And if we only had a little more time. And this time is all there is. Do you remember the time we and all the times we and should have and were going to I know. And I know you remember how we could justify it all. And we knew better. In our hearts we knew better. And we told ourselves it didn't matter. And we chose to continue. And none of that matters anymore in the hour of our twilight. And soon it will be all said and done, and we will all be back together as one. If we will continue at all. And you never get away. And you never get to take the easy way. And all of this is a consequence brought on by our own hand. (If you believe in that sort of thing) And did you ever really find, when you closed your eyes, any place that was still, and at peace? And I guess I just wanted to tell you, as the light starts to fade: you are the reason that I am not afraid. And I guess I just wanted to mention, as the heavens will fall: we will be together soon if we will be anything at all.

.1.threw.it.away. -x- .throw.it.away.




			.stop.